英语翻译In fact I will always feel unhappy now.But I don’t know

英语翻译
In fact I will always feel unhappy now.But I don’t know how to say with others.Because I will think others didn’t understand me and this thing just belong to me.
It seem there are something had change in the mind.When I am thinking of it,my heart was hurting.Always I will tell myself don’t think too much,but sometimes it seem really happen.So afraid of it.What’s to be done?
My birthday is ready to come.In the Mid-autumn Day’s Eve.Everybody remember it in my dormitory.They said so lucky for me ,many people will remember my birthday,and I can how to celebrate… it seems I will very happy for what they said,but even more I just feel helplessly.I hope my birthday will have busy,happy,romantic and so on.But I think so difficult.Just simple.That’s just real life.
I like to always delusion so I have many imagine.How to celebrate if there is a special day has to come,where to go to eat the delicious food in the spare time,when to travel only for us …… many,many ,many,…but now,it seem only me to think a lot,only me to pay attention for it…just none of your business.So disappointed for me.
The more expectation the more fear to be hurt.
I’m sorry.I won’t to make any day-dreams any more.Just easy living.
Don’t think any more from now on.
Kiro remix

说实话我现在常常觉得不开心,但是我不知道如何跟别人倾诉,因为我觉得没人理解我,并且这是我自身的问题.
似乎现在某些想法改变了.每当我想起这事,就会觉得很受伤.我一直对自己说别想那么多,但我控制不了.我很怕,不知道该怎么办.
我的生日快到了.在中秋节的前一夜,宿舍所有人都记得这件事,他们说我很幸运,因为我的生日很好记,很多人都会记得,并且我现在可以开始考虑如何庆祝生日了...本来我应该因为他们的话而感到高兴的,但是此刻我却觉得很无助.我希望我的生日可以过得充实、快乐、浪漫...但我知道这不太可能.简单就好吧,毕竟这才是生活,不是么?
我常常幻想,天马行空.在一个特殊的日子到来时如何庆祝,有空去哪儿吃美食,什么时候只为了我们2个人而旅行...等等等等...但现在看来,我是自作多情了,与你无关.我很失望.期望越高就会被伤得越深.
对不起,我不会再做白日梦了.简单地生活吧.从现在起什么都不想.