解释“This is not how I am”

解释“This is not how I am” this is not what i am looking This is not I?Where am I? 什么意思 This is how I am I've been like this,I've been like this my Love is how it is lost,not how it is found.Love is when I am This is the last thing I am not sure about. I am not sure how to put this,but I broke your cup. This is how I This is not my Christmas, I am not happy, I feel sad and ups 英语翻译''This is not a job...this is a verdict'' I am passionat I guess this is where i am supposed to say it is not the gif This is what I am